The Cleanse

Okay. Its time to get real. The last 6 months have been somewhat of a joyride on the fat train and its time to get off. A stark reality hit me when my scale tipped to be what has now officially become my highest weight (outside of pregnancy). My starting stats: Height: 5'6 (1/2) Weight: 165 (I gained three pounds just yesterday...seriously). So, I am 28 years old and it is time to get my fat a$$ off the couch, my chubby little hands out of the chips and salsa and begin what will hopefully be my final journey back to my body.

So here is what I am starting today. The 2 week Whole Body Cleanse. I have always been intrigued when it comes to cleansing....but in all honesty somewhat scared to be sitting on the toilet for 2 weeks. I have now come to the point that I honestly welcome it! Bring on the flush...literally. Oh the innuendos!

I am cutting out caffeine, wheat, sugar and dairy for the next 2 weeks. Today has been okay because its day 1 and I have all the gusto in the world. My morning coffee with non-fat milk has been replaced with Detox-tea that tastes a bit like black licorice. Breakfast was a bowl of raspberries and blackberries with a tablespoon of flax oil and lunch was a grilled chicken salad from Chipotle (no dressing)...but I did have salsa, the grilled peppers, tomatos, corn and black beans. Dinner is yet to come and I think I am going to make a beef & vegetable soup with salad. I have also been drinking water all day.

So in an attempt to put myself out there and conquer my fears and anxieties, let me tell you the things I am scared about: First off - functioning without my morning coffee. I am an addict. Not sticking to the cleanse and gaining more weight. Doing the cleanse and then not getting on to a proper eating and excercise plan that I can stick with. Being in social settings where I am tempted to eat something outside of my plan. Not going to the gym.

So now that I have that on the table...a let me tell you a bit about myself and the world of skinny, fat, bad and good. I have a very interesting relationship with myself and my body. I define skinny as good and fat as bad. When I look back on my life the good times were when I was skinny (no matter what kind of crap was actually going on) and the bad is fat (or is it the fat is bad). Anyway, I have tried everything from the cabbage soup diet to weight watchers and although I have managed to lose weigh on all the plans I have tried, I also tend to sabatoge myself. When someone says"oh you look good, have you lost weight?" that seems to allow my inner voice to give me the golden ticket on the food train....I eat. I eat chips and salsa, guacomole, nachos, burritos....yeah I have a thing for mexican. Bread, fries, burgers, ice cream, pasta....okay you get the picture. Until. I have my "uh oh" moment and get back into the organic salad, fresh fruits and veges, grilled chicken, nuts, legumes and olive oil world. With that said, I know what it takes. I know what healthy looks like. It is not about being good or bad. It is not about being skinny or fat. It is about loving yourself enough to do the right things for your body. As much as this journey is about going to Fat and Back...it is about learning to love myself again. Learing to put my needs on the front burner and realizing that balance is how I will finally maintain my goals...not good and bad.

So...very lengthy first post. I had a lot of ground to cover. I am off to 4:30 yoga, on a sunday nonetheless. I will be back and I hope this blog continues on with a happy ending.

The world just got a little brighter...welcoming a sweet little baby boy Elijah Simon! My beautiful sister Ashlea and her pretty good looking husband Matt have produced the most adorable little infant son that you could ever imagine! Amazingly, Wyatt and I were able to take a super speedy trip up to Red Deer to meet the little guy...just one day after his debut into this world! How precious little newborns are...but no it didn't make me want another one just yet. I will leave the sleepless nights and hundreds of diaper changes to someone else for now. Wyatt loved his little cousin and was really sweet with him. He also got to have a great afternoon playing with his other cuzzies, Noah and Boston! Trucks, cars, sand and cheetos make 3 little boys awfully happy.

Cast Free & Fancy Free

Well now that I have a whole new lease on life due to the fact that my cast has finally finally come off....its time to start recording a few more stops on this journey. Its been pretty busy around here this month. Okay wow I just realized its the last day of April (for some reason its more around the 15th in my mind). Anyway, we just had a nice visit from our Canadian friend Miss. Jamie. It was very busy with shopping and sight seeing all around Fort Worth. I think Wyatts favorite thing to do was chasing kitties through the Botanic Gardens. Oh and by "kitties" he means squirrels.










We are also discovering all of the things that make you a true Texan. It is very popular in these parts to take your child or children to fields of bluebonnets (which happen to be the state flower) and take many photos of them looking happy and frolicking through the flowers. So, in attempt to fit in, I took little Wyatt to do such a thing. There were however a few problem that we encountered. One: bluebonnets are mostly located along extremely busy freeways. Two: there are fire ant piles in the bluebonnets (ouch). Three: Not all children like bluebonnets.

Sunny Afternoons

We had such a nice weekend this last week...the calm before the storm as they say! However, today its a tornado watch of course (one reason to hate Texas). So in memory of that lovely weekend, I thought I would share how wonderful the weather CAN be here in April!! It was like a hot summer day in Calgary. Well, Wyatt had so much fun at the park, pushing his truck down the slide over and over. We were there all afternoon and he is just getting so big! He doesn't need mama to help him any more and he is making all sorts of friends all over the neighbourhood. Well just wanted to share our pictures from this fun day. We are stuck inside today...waiting out the weather and watching Bee Movie for the 39th time.

semi-annual blog post

Well it seems that I have a rather difficult time keeping this thing current!! For those of you that try to follow our life, we have moved again...yes again. So now we are settled into Fort Worth, Texas in a cute little house only 5 minutes to downtown! Hooray. I also have a broken wrist, the result of an unfourtunate car accident just before Christmas. Needless to say, my left hand is becoming extremely over used! Wyatt is turning out to be quite the toddler indeed. At 19 months he seems to be talking alot! Maybe since I am home with him all day it seems that we carry on decent conversations....his words include: piggy toes, hair, eyes, cheeks, teeth, mouth (um yes we are learning body parts), thank you, no, mine (thanks to Noah! ha ha ha), nigh nigh, sou sou (his soother), money (monkey), ellie, blankie, choo choo, show, boots, sockies....well you get the idea, he talks. Anyway, other than that I guess its difficult to catch up on everything since August. Motherhood is good, and no, we are not ready for another one!....yet. :)